January 2012
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I want to kill myself.
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I haven't eaten in almost three days.
When I finally got up this morning, I made myself two cups of chai green tea with splenda. I took a shower, straightened my hair for once, and went bowling. Then we went to a pizza place where I had a small salad about 50 calories and I threw up the whole thing until there was blood. Then walked for hours at stores, climbed flights upon flights of stairs instead of using elevators. Came home and...
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Anonymous asked: so i had anorexia binge purge type but ive been restricting instead of throwing up since my parents started to get suspicious. i binged yesterday without even noticing and i throw up afterwards. today it was so hard for me not to binge again. why does it happen? i havnt binged/purged in 3 weeks! also i got my period today after 5 months of not having it. is that good? sorry for all the questions i...
Anonymous asked: I am reading what people are saying to you tonight. Some people are so pathetic. Happy new years sweet heart. I know you are probably having a hard night with you and Nic not even hanging out but for me can you at least smile no matter whats going on when the clock strikes midnight. It would mean a lot to me. I hope this year brings you recovery and hope so you have another year of life. Even...
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Anonymous asked: i don't know why, but i just wanted to tell you i didnt binge or purge on the last day of 2011. the only day out of the whole year that i didn't do it. and i'm just really proud of myself. i don't know why i'm telling you, but you give me strength. and i really hope you can recover. it makes me so sad to read about the pain your in. i really hope you can get through this...
pinkandporcelain asked: who the fuck is WE anon? Get the fuck off Maira's blog. I fucking love her. I've been checking her blog all fucking day to make sure she's okay. WE is just you, who has no life but to come here and leave her hate. Grow up.
Anonymous asked: What was your New Year's Revolution?
Anonymous asked: if it ever came down to it , what would you chose nic or your eating disorder?
Anonymous asked: Oh Maira, oh poor poor Maira. Grow the fuck up, you mental stupid FAT bitch, no one loves you, not even Nic, so go starve untill you die, go purge until you end up dead, head dangling in your own vomit. WE ALL HATE YOU.
Anonymous asked: i think you like your eating disorder, it gives you a sense of identity.
Anonymous asked: thanks for the self harm idea, im going out to buy a scalpel in the morning :) i can never find anything the cuts deep enough but i now know you can get scalpels from the hardware store :) thanks love you hunni xx
Anonymous asked: no wonder why nic was so turned on when you wore lingerie, those pyjamas make me wanna vomit, literally :S
December 2011
Anonymous asked: I just smiled because I realized that if i take all of the pills i was prescribed at the same time, i wont have to live to see 2012. I feel so fucked up, because the thought of being dead makes me happier than anything else.
Anonymous asked: what are you doing anything for new year?
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Anonymous asked: its not right of people to judge your binges because they think they're "too small" eating disorders are grouped into different categories because they are all different. everyone gets one in different ways and recovers in different ways and people should learn that before they judge because the last thing people who are suffering need is uneducated messages about things that are...
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Anonymous asked: But I mean when you eat do you do it SO you can purge?
oculos-evacuat asked: Maira relapsed and became suicidal, but she will find a way to hold on to her goals and move forward, as its what she deserves <3
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Anonymous asked: You are beautiful, recovery is possible. I care, and I'm someone. You need to eat. And incase you didn't know, not eating actually causes you to gain more weight rapidly. It damages your body too much. Please, find help
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Anonymous asked: I know it's obviously not easy but what happened to recovery?
